Nekidness with people

So I have the place to myself for once so of course the first things I do is get some choice people to have an E-tard cuddle puddle movie/music shindig going, got some people, some cash, and got to see Jedi and Kyj..which is always nice, but being the weirdo I am, whenever Im there I just get...yeah anyways...got 7 pills to go between 6 people, should be fine right? well pats done enough
drugs that he needs a direct spine shot to get him rollin these days, and me, Im just a big fat guy so it takes 2....needless to say neither of us were feeling much, so we split it, watched boondock saints with everyone else, and then I needed to give one of my guests a ride home...of course about 5 minutes down the road is when I really start rolling...do you have ANY idea what its like to try to focus on driving like that? Now put a pair of tits in your face and then have her sucking on your neck....yeah...needless to say that was the best driving I ever did because I had to focus SOOOOO hard to make sure I was driving normally....anyways, dropped her off, got back to my pad, everyone was chillen and listening to music, then Van, Zen, and Sammy showed up nad of course, things got friendly (they have a way of doin that)...so long story short, everyone got nekid, seen some interesting things, and everyone stayed the night so we all woke up next to someone nekid, and only a couple people had sex XP...anyways...had a friend over today and got my neck and lip mauled some more, (I swear my lip was bleeding) so yeah gots a swollen lip and my neck looks like I was severly abused like a red-headed stepchild but it was worth it....but its odd...I still feel alone...not in a physical way..just...the attachment part is so faint these days...all of this happened and I treated it like it was sunday morning breakfast...I find it harder to re-act to things these days...to feel anything..and Im wondering what thats about...*shrugs* oh well, Im better off I guess, anyways, hope everyones havin a good saturday night, Id be out or have people over but Im still recovering XP that and this place (my room) is tore to shit :P, anyways, take care and Ill ttyl guys *hugs*

-Sean